Liquid

ever been in a room filled with people yet you feel alone?

every been in a conversation with someone talking bout everything and still feel alone?

ask around, ask anyone or tell them how you feel and it gets back to ” hey you know im always here for you ” or ” no matter what, your family is there for you “

what if there is more to that, what if there is more than what it seems to be

i guess this is just one of those crazy night where nothing can explain what im truly feeling. 

dear liquid friend of mine, never leave my side.

Energy

i remember her being loud, so loud she had never needed a microphone. i remember her so well but i can hardly find her now. she seem to have had disappeared. 

i remember entering college and she failed to appear, i saw her friends as she slowly surfaced. when they separated, she vanished all over again.

she seemed to have turned into a form of energy, that could disappear and reappear again.

i miss her.

she knew me better than i ever knew myself.

she is my heart and soul.

Me.

Steak

"i love you" he said.

"i love you too" i answered back

They were unnatural and taste funny : so easy to say and yet they were like tough steak and i was vegetarian.

Cries

I hear her cries as no one else does, covered with smiles, she walks on unnoticed. 

Under the rain you’d see, red, stained across her face

Life flashes, trusting, confiding gets harder

Last

I seem to suffer from expressing how I truly feel and when I do i feel so awkward cause there are too many emotions at a go. I try to hide most of my emotions and sometimes I cant. This just turns me silent. I know I am not like how I was 5 years ago. I've had the "you have changed" remark in my face and still have yet to find out whether its for the worst or better. I just want to cry my heart out, yet there are no more tears.